**Dedicated to my boyfriend who died 4-27-05...he was 17, and died in a car accident...we dated for 1 yr n a half...i love you baby**
Constantly striving to be me…
as people just bring me don’t u see…
I will never forget you I know this…
I will always remember n strive for our one last kiss…
But we all need to see…
That what I’m doing, Isn’t me…
I need to move on w/ my life
I can’t stand this pain that cuts me life a knife…
It’s driving me insane, I can’t handle it…
I don’t mean to throw a big fit…
But at this point all I want to do is leave…
Or maybe God has another trick up his sleeve…
Everything in my life has been a surprise
And leaves me w/ just more n more cries…
Sometimes I sit and wonder why my life is so hard…
Do I really deserve such a bad life card…
All the pain I thought I knew…
All the thoughts lead back to you…
Back and forth inside my head…
All the words that were never said…
I miss you…I really do...
But now its time for me to realize were threw…
When you died…so did I…
And now all I do is cry…
No one understands that I won’t forget you…
I get that it’s onto heaven you flew…
So now it’s my turn to fly…
Because as I’m sitting here, my life is passing me by…
We were in love that’s a fact…
Now all I do is sit here and I want that back…
Knowing that I can’t have you hurts the worse…
As I cry in my room and curse…
But threw this pain I have thought…
That I have I cried and I have fought…
Fought the people that have seconded guessed me…
They have made me feel so bad I just wanted to flea…
But the difference between me and you is that I’m here…
Fighting all of my fears…
I don’t look down on you for what u did…
You were still just a misunderstood kid…
I love you and miss you till the day I die…
Until the last tear drop falls from my eye this I promise you…
All the memories of me and you will live forever…
And the moment that I wont miss you will be never…
