Don't Know Where I Stand

I'm lost,
Feeling neglected,
And confused..

I've been through this.
So many times.
I don't get how anything is anymore.

I feel alone.
Cold.
Hurt.

I cry at night,
Wishing it was better..
And wanting all my problems to be fixed.

I'm living in a world..
Of never-ending negativity,
And anger.

I feel sad,
Mad,
And barely happy.

Family, friends, and my love,
Can only cheer me.
For now I only feel sorrow..

I didn't get this,
But now I do..
It feels wrong..

I feel as though I've been dropped,
But not helped back up.
I don't think I can stand on my own.

I've fallen,
And felt the pain,
Of a thousand bullets through my chest.

Life as I see it now,
Will not get better.
I feel locked up..

I'm scarred,
Blistered..
And bruised inside.

I feel scared..
Worthless..
And used..

Someday, I hope..
My life will turn around..
But as for now..
I just don't know where I stand..