Rape

A night outside with my friends
having fun hopping it wouldn't end
drinking laughing getting high
but it was 2 a.m. so all said bye

walking home i was all alone
hoping id get there fast to my own home
i saw a man and then he smiled
watching me walk for a while

all of a sudden there i here
him telling me to come near
but i just looked away
he came after me hoping id stay

he grabbed my arm i said let go
but this night no one will know
he pushed me down and unbuttoned my skirt
then slapped me it was getting worse

i tried to get away but he held me back
i heard him then start to laugh
he thought it was funny what he did
i was 11 i was just a kid

i pushed him down i almost got away
then he grabbed my foot and told me to come play
he touched me in places that ill never forget
empty now is what i get

holding me down he did what he pleased
fighting back was just one me
he hit me harder i couldn't breath
crying so hard i couldn't see

but then i hit him in the face
i ran as far from that place
but i was too weak from all the pain
i then passed out from drinking insane

he then came over i was asleep
he won i was defeated
he held me out in his way
did what he wanted, while i slept away

the next day i woke up on the ground
no one came looking i wasn't found?
i guess no one cared at all
since this day i don't stand tall

this was all my fault he had to do this
i just remember him holding me with his fist
why me why not someone else
empty with nothings how i felt

depression from then was all id hold
this one night story i never told
every time i here his name
i can still feel the aching pain

what if hes doing this to someone different
if i would tell someone could fix it
but ill be in trouble it was all my mess
a tramp that night was how i dressed

the way i looked is why he came around
my smile never now comes around
I'm scared over everything no longer am i brave
he made part of me want this blade

now you all here no my story
this man always smiles at his glory
hes happy for all that hes done
he thinks rapping girls is nothing but fun

never go out without anyone knowing
because my life now is how yours will be going
another part of me got taken away
sooner or later i can not stay.