What about me??

Hey, do you remember when,
we spent each day with each other?
never fought or disagreed,
we would do everything together...

we shared the same thoughts,
believed in the same god,
we liked the same foods,
even down to our cod.

our two year difference,
never changed a thing.
we were too close,
i never imagined what that would bring...

it started when i was in 7th,
you were in high school now.
time to hang out with the big kids,
and so you broke your vow.

i was left in the dark,
with no one to turn to.
when my depression took over,
you never even knew...

I went to the "dark side"
and you became a prep.
walking around with your head held high
and a bounce in your step.

you started having boyfriends,
while i found a way on my own.
my best friend became a razor,
i sliced my arm to the bone...

you were so busy all the time,
you never noticed my cries for help.
you were just so happy,
it didn't matter how i felt.

i got sent to the hospital,
for wanting to die.
you never even noticed my absence,
what happened to you and why?!?!

one day i gave up.
swallowed some pills...
got rushed to the ER,
i was hoping they would kill.

my mother called you up,
and told you what i did.
you just said okay and
you'd stop by when you could.

well, i never saw you again.
looks like you don't care.
well, when you're ready for me,
i will no longer be there...

What happened my friend?
where did our friendship go?
you can look for me when you're ready.
i will be 6 ft below...