January 19, 2005 till July 1, 2005
such ...a... not so long time
It may seem so long,as the time from 5pm till sometimes 2am
Talking, getting to know each other;
whats your favorite color?
whats your favorite movie?
whats your favorite. painting? [ as we say the same thing( starry
night by Vango) ]
Getting closer.. and.. closer saying cute little things,
Deciding on "the little things that count"- why? I don't have a clue
Non acceptant, the tears not ending for good
but we did the best we could...
It seems forever that I've know u, so close, but yet so
far away.
Now we have turned from almost together to some-what of
friend. Non involved: the mind, ever lost, in feelings
waiting,
I know moving on is unpreventable..
I can't ...its something thats in my heart.. its telling me
NO
hold on a little .. bit.. long.. u might end up regretting
the whole thing..
As i have done in the past with petty non important
material ...
Having to ask U , after talking for a bit:
something was wrong ,something was different, not right ,
not normal
HAVING TO ASK U MYSELF- was the worst thing ever for me
tearing me and my heart in half,
turning black, it hit me with full force
onward silence hit over like a disease, spreading threw a
cancer patient , with the same amount of pain
the time that followed was.. not the same ... just not the
same
