Not Coming Back

I’d rather cry into my pillow
Than face the way I feel
Try to figure out what happened
At the time it seemed so real
I don’t know much about it
Can’t put this into words
Don’t think I can ever show you
Just how much it hurts
When your vision’s cloudy
And your heart won’t beat
You know inside your dieing
And all you can do is weep
My heart’s different colors
Shades of blue and gray
Never know what went wrong
Or how it got this way
Whatever I did wrong
Was done unintentionally
This has to be a dream
It hurts too much to be reality
The things you’ve done to me
Have made my heart black
You say we’ll still be friends
But I know you won’t be back