Another sad storry...........

Another sad story.....

my heart broken. my life slipping away right before my eyes. its like i cant do anything to make it stop. i laugh but still i feel useless and so unhappy. my face is cracked like an old painting hung on the wall. i know some how its my fault, it always is. but still deep down inside i feel like i could live. i eat and it makes me sick. i sleep and it makes me weak and sore. i take out my knife just to see how far i can go. the pain i cant explain. the feeling is so far from plain. I'm so lonely, all i need is to hear them words........the ones i know would make it better. but no one knows. they all think I'm just so happy. they don't know that not a day goes by i don't think about killing myself. I'm just another sad story, written in blood. carved into a stone. my life so everyone can see......I'm tired of being a failure. I'm tired of not being ok. my life is fu**ed up i don't even know........one day it will make scenes. one day it will all seem so clean. but until then ill just sit here.........