Last Letter , I love you too

Life is getting tough
He told me day by day
I just thought it was teen stuff
Everything would be okay

I saw the pain in his eyes
I heard the ache in his heart
I knew it was all lies
I knew something was tearing him apart

He wouldn\\\'t tell me
I wanted to know so bad
What was hurting him?
What was making him so sad

The night it happened
He called me from his phone
He told me he needed me
Because he was all alone...

I got in my car
I drove to were I knew he was
I hope it hasn\\\'t gone to far
He was my only love

As I walked into the field calling his name
I heard a gun shot
I shouted out in pain

When I saw him I knelled down and cried
He still looked so beautiful
Though now I know he has died
I want him back just for a second to hold
Everything is going down
The world feels so cold

As they sorted through his things
They found a journal
He filled with words of pain
There was a letter found in the bind
It was written to me
It was him opening his mind

What was in this letter will remain unsaid
Because it was his entire life
It\\\'s what was in his head
Every twisted thought in his mind
A written letter to let him unwind
He told me of his child hood
How his father hit him good
How hard it was to get through
How everything was new
He moved in with his mother
Who much to my surprise
Was a work drunk
For her own Enterprise
How he raised himself for so long
How he never felt like he belong
He signed it with love from me to you
I left a note on his cold grave
I love you too