*Cannot*

An unbearable feeling
Is inside of me
As I wonder my mind
Clearly I do not see

Leave depression besides things
Hoping for newer change
Try to find my own weakness
Leave myself being strange

Crying yet laughing
Cannot find my thought
Cannot find my feeling
Life through death I have fought

Cannot win if I'm losing
So I lose to this life
Nothing will ever stop it
Like a back by a knife

Change myself then I see
That I found what is mine
But the words in my head
Call me quite through the time