Must punish myself

I must have done something
terribly terribly bad
i hate myself
u must hate me too
so i must punish myself
i will cut many times
drag that razor
cut so deep
i don't mean just one
but like 2 or 3
and deep
u hit me
i feel like i deserve it
so i go up to my room
and i cut and cut
im sorry
i don't know what i did
but i must have did something
so fuc.king bad
so i must
i must do it
to punish myself
i must
must punish myself
i will cut
but now
i will also
abuse myself
i will bang my head to the wall
pay them to hit me
pay them to hurt me
break my heart
to make me unhappy
this is a must
i simply
must punish myself