My feelings coming back

I sit here
bleeding from the wrist
from the sensation
of just a twist

bleeding from 1 cut
soon to be more
2 and 3
and now 4

4 cuts bleeding
5 6 7 8
for u drew
i will wait

9 and 10
11 12 13
to u
never was i mean

14 15 16
17 18 19
all the cuts
that cant be seen

20 bleeding cuts
20 crimson cries
vision blurry
from teary eyes

still do i
need more and more
so i cut 21
22 23 and then 24

soon now take the knife
and cut number 25
oh crap it
im still alive

26 27 28 and 30
then 31
and finally
i think i am done

decide to make one more
end at 32
and just say
all these cuts were for u