Twisted..

I hate myself
for what i do to me

you cause all my pain
so i make some scars

never your fault
always my defaults

you act like my emotions
are just a piece of dirt

you take me and slam me in the mud
act like i don't cry

i just don't in front of you
you'd go "suck it up b-i-t-c-h"

you hurt me so bad
i hated you for it

i hated myself
also my life

i thought there
was no point in living

then i met a girl
she is my best friend

she's been their for me
but then a tragedy happened

i had lost you
now i lost her

it was a normal night
just us two

we were driving around town
we were sober

but a guy wasn't
he was swerving all around

we pulled over
to avoid getting hit

he missed us
we kept driving

but he had turned around
to follow us and scare us

we stopped at a hidden stop sign
it was a head jerking stop

of course he was right on us
he brakes sucked really bad

he hit us
i was buckled

she wasn't
she flew out the wind shield

she flew 20 feet and slid 5
she died on impact

i walked away
with a few bruises and cuts

but i was fine
but i was scarred for life

not physically
but mentally

i saw her fly
and heard her screams until she slid

i couldn't cry
i was too shocked

then a month later
i cried until my eyes were crimson red

i couldn't believe i lost her
in just a blink on an eye

the guy got the death penalty
i went to see him die

i didn't cry
i was angry

too mad to care for him
his wife and kids were there

they told me sorry
for his behavior

i said it's OK
I'll get through this eventually

I've lost so many people in my life
it ain't even funny

once again pretty lame.. I'm not thinking straight.. obviously..