How i feel lately...

This is who i am
a girl as sweet as jam
how come i get so down
even when i take away one's frown?

I'm known as friendly and caring
and that I'm really understanding
how come when using these qualities
i get hurt in large quantities?

i learned something the other day
care less and you'll get hurt less all the way
doing this might help me
but others will think I'm as weird as can be

they'll say this is not that girl
who when we're down, to us she'll hurl
but i don't really care much anymore
cause i don't feel like hurting as before

I'm not willing not to care at all
cause if i did that? I'd directly fall
that's why i decided to care less
in order not to let others feel I've become a mess

why am i supposed to be the first one
to always remember others even when I'm gone?
why can't they bother to say a simple hi
or even mention a sweet goodbye?

it's always me who's thinking of them
and wondering how their lives stem
how come no one is thinking of me
and wondering how i would be?

I'm fed up of being this sweet Helena
i don't even want to be called the nicest Lena
"care less...get hurt less"
that's my favorite motto these days i guess

love? well, I've decided to turn over the page
in order to get over that imaginative stage
i used to dream a lot about love
i went through a lot of thorns and i guess that's enough

I'm living my life without asking much
i know I've never been as such
when my one finally comes
then my heart directly his becomes

who? when? where? and how?
i don't really care much right now
all i want these days is to have fun
and as much as possible try to think of none!

when i feel that my life is full of walls
and none is returning my calls
I'm sure i still have One by my side
and from Him i don't really have to hide

others might think I'm becoming hopeless
and that i need a special bless
but no...I'm completely hopeful
and i feel so happy and peaceful

i look around and i get glad
when i see a smiling kid or lad
why do people focus on zeros and not tens?
just go ahead...smile and see what happens!

seeking every opened door
striving for what I'm looking for
looking patiently for tomorrow
feeling brave with no sorrow

God only knows what the next day holds
I'm gonna walk all hills and folds
this is supposed to be a summer vacation
so...I'm gonna enjoy every new occasion

though there are a lot going on around
and a lot of pain might be found
but on my side there's patience and hope
and I'm sure they'll gonna help me cope...