The night they found her dead

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She sat there
staring out the window
knowing her scars
she could never show

everyone thought that
she had the best life
they never knew
she would cut with a knife

they would say
i wanna be like her
they never expected
her to cut with the razor

they thought just
because she smiled all the time
nothing was wrong in her life
but thats because she never whined

she knew that she must
keep her secrets close
that her her knife
was what loved her most

she never quite understood
how they thought that she
was actually
truly happy

she remembered what they said
when lunch she did not eat
oh another part of her life
she will now cheat

then she met a friend
one who to she opened
but then they left her
even more broken

never again
did she open up
her mouth she just
kept alway shut

she remember the one
she first feel in love with
and remember how happy she was
oh how that she missed

then she realized
she had to do something to get it back
so she tried and tried
and then daddy gave her a whack

he hit her so hard
she used make up to hid the marks
she loved him but
she never wanted to with him in the dark

he had done so many things
now her he abused
oh he left
so very confused

what was she to do
she had on line friends
telling her
that this must end

but she didn't wanna say anything
when ever she did her they never believe
and when her friends find out
her they will forever leave

she will be
the girl standing by the wall
watching as her life
quickly falls

she cuts everyday
more and more
then one day
she cut deeper than before

the ended up in the hospital
with all her friends around
she wanted to die
and just hit the ground

when they saw her
as she began to wake
she looked where she was
and began to shake

then suddenly
she went flat line
she was dying
she had run out of time

but then suddenly
she came back to life
thats when she vowed
to drop the knife

but then one day came
that she just couldn't take
the knife was calling her
oh how she began to shake

she took it out from where she hid it
and she slip it across again
it felt good
just like it had then

she cut once
and then even more
she cut to deep
even deeper than before

this is her sad story
and remember what i said
that is the night
they found her dead