Why?

Why do I feel like this?
Like I have no control
Over a damn thing in my life
And how did this feeling start?

I have a great guy
The greatest even
I should be happy right?
Then why am I not?

Why is this feeling
I've been fighting for years
Taking over now?
Why now?

Why 5 days before my 16th b-day?
Why when my life is just coming together?
Why when the guy I love and I
Get back together?

Why is life so hard?
Why do you get depression?
Why does depression consume you?
Why am I asking this?

I'm not asking anymore
Not anymore
I'm going to find out myself
And I suggest you do the same