Why Can't I Evaporate?...

I think about it over and over again
I keep on replaying it all in my head
And to me it still doesn’t make sense
I can run, but I can’t jump the fence

Maybe I am too short or it’s too high
I feel like a raindrop in this huge sky
Falling on everyone into the ground
Screaming, crying, but without sound

Why can’t I die, or evaporate into air
I’m sick of people acting like they care
Nothing is right, so what should I say
I regret my past, each and every day

All I want is for everyone to forgive
It’s not my fault this is the way I live
Dad, I’m sorry that I was your mistake
I am still here so dead, yet so awake

I just want a friend to hold me tight
And when I am sad, to say it is alright
All I am asking is someone to be true
But to everyone that seems hard to do