At first, I can't explain,
Why I'm feeling this pain,
Something that I never felt before,
It's something new, but I don't like this feeling anymore.
I don't understand why,
I keep feeling this way,
Though I know you are gay,
but coz' of that you'll always make me cry.
You don't know how it hurts,
When you present to me your "guy"
You told me how you love him,
and that's from the bottom of your heart,
And that without him by your side,
Most likely, you'll die.
After that event,
You called for an advice,
on how to deal the pain,
that keeps hurting you inside,
It hurts when I heard that your heart was broken,
but a bit happy,
for now you know how does it feels,
from someone you loved, you experienced pain.
On that time, you told me,
" I Love you Friend, you're the best that I have,
Maybe if you're not here,
I'll be dead most likely!!!"
Yes, it makes me happy,
hearing you say those words to me,
for they are like angels whispering to my ears,
but unsatisfied as I am always be,
for I wanted more from you baby.
I'll hope you'll forgive me,
If I always try to not let you see him,
It's just that it won't be easy,
for me to ease the pain that I'm feeling.
One time, at a seminar,
and we're there and praying,
I opened my eyes just a bit,
I saw you dear, and you're crying,
I'm wondering,
What I do is to keep on praying,
that the feeling you have now,
will be gone somehow.
After we ended our prayers,
you hug me so tight,
for all this time,
I felt the warm I'm looking for.
My message is,
to take care of yourself, please,
and I don't want to know whose with you by now,
but I want you to know,
I'll always cherished you from the heart!!
I hope and I pray,
That we'll meet again someday,
and you'll have a change of heart,
that you may be able to say to me,
the words I'm ,longing for!!
