Happy Father's Day

Happy Father's Day!
I hear my friends cheer.
I don't say a word,
As I wipe away a tear.

This is what you've done to me,
You've broken my heart in two.
Through the years I've grown up,
And all I ever wanted was you.

Beer and drugs messed up your life,
So to the ones you hurt, you were blind.
I've searched and searched again,
But your love I still can't find.

I know it's inside of you,
I'm positive that it's there.
You only need to see it yourself,
And realize you're able to care.

You've missed my first footsteps,
Weren't there to break my fall.
Missed my first birthday,
Didn't even see me grow tall.

Sitting here alone for sixteen years,
Dad, your absence is no surprise.
But the wound you made is still bleeding,
I wish you would open your eyes.

I know the beer has ruined your mind,
I know you'll never really love me.
I know that I should forget you're there,
But if you called, I'd cross desert and sea.

I'd do anything you asked,
All you need is to say the word.
I know I'll never hear it,
Because your vision is permanetly blurred.

I have some questions to ask,
That frequently cross my mind.
I know you'll never hear them,
Still, the answers I need to find.

Didn't you want to see me grow,
Help me fight my haunting fears?
Didn't you want to hold my hand,
And wipe away my saddest tears?

Didn't you ever dream,
You'd hear your daughter say,
"I love you daddy,
Happy Father's Day?"