It's hard

It's hard to talk to you
knowing how you feel
knowing all you feelings you once had
non of them were real,

It's hard to think of you
for our love we once shared
we swore and promised to each other
that on one could break it, even if they dared,

It's hard to look at you
without a tear in my eye
knowing now everyday
I wish I were to die,

It's hard to hold my pillow
wishing it was you
because no matter how tight my grip is
it's only my pillow not you,

It's hard for me to pray
because I only pray for you
because my prays only consist of
the lives we once knew,

It's hard to wish and hope
because your love is the only thing I want
your love was the only reason
for my life I fought,

It's hard to sleep at night
because when I close my eyes your the only thing i see
and all the dreams I have
consist of only you and me,

And most of all it's hard to say those 3 simple words * I love you *
because baby you were the only one
I dreamt I would say it to.