It's not just something i thought I'd never do
It's a dirty that has stained me deeply
So deep i cant breathe
My stomach is queasy
My head spinning
How could i let him do this
This isn't me
I know I'm falling deeper than before
So much more deeper
I cant seem to grasp any holding
I cant seem to see anything anymore
It's too bright
And yet i am too blind
To see the history repeating but with a different person
Not so different if you really see
Because i offered myself to the mistake
And pleaded more
This dirty is so deep
A deep I've never felt before
It's a deep that as put a hole through every rule I've ever made for myself
This deep will never stop
For i have lost my last sense of control
