A Child Of The Dark

I see you in the corner
You glance at your veins
As a tear falls down your cheek
You crave the blade's pain

I know where you're going
To the shower with that knife
So they can't hear you cry
So you can lighten up your life

You know it's only temporary
Only for a moment, will the tears fade
But then an hour will pass
Then it's back to the blade

You've been in this routine awhile
It's like a repeating song
Whens the last time you smiled?
I know it's been way too long

You let that knife control you
I can't understand why
Maybe it numbs you inside
So you don't have to cry

You lock yourself in that room
Listening to the summer rain
Always wearing bracelets and long sleeves
Just to cover up your pain

I know what you do in there
I can hear the slice of your vein
The blood slides off your wrist
But you're prepared for the pain

You have napkins to soak the blood
The crimson color fascinates you every time
You gaze in your mirror
Convincing yourself it will all be fine

Twelve years old
You suffer the pain of life
Your arms covered with cuts
You're blinded by that knife

I remember when you were a child
Crazy about life's false hope
Now you sit in that darkened corner
Just trying to cope

As that blood drains
From a life-altering slit
You remember every time you hurt
Every time you were hit

"Your life is a part of you
Deal with it
Can't you just grow up
You f-cking little sh-t"

The words she tells herself are harsh
But she believes every bit
She holds that knife so dearly
She can't deal without it...

I wish the pain would stop
But it's still with her to this day
"I guess I just can't grow up"
Is still what she will say

This little girl I speak of
That child of the dark was me
And I still can't heal my pain
But just let my wrist bleed

You may think I was naive
Or maybe just insane
But like the scars won't fade
Neither will that pain

Understand these years are hard
Maybe even befriend a child with a fend for the knife
Maybe then they'll forget that blade
And maybe you'll save their life