The pain you caused us all,
Leaving us without a proper goodbye.
My mum told me what you said,
But you didn't see the tears I cried,
You didn't see the shaking in my hands,
You didn't feel my heart being pulled down by a weight.
But after what happened yesterday,
Its made me realize I can't spend my life being angry with you,
Because all too soon you could go,
And I would never have the chance to say "I love you still" and "goodbye".
You may not be perfect,
Not even father material,
But at least you make an effort,
And thats all I can ask.
You're still my father,
And I don't want to push you out of my life,
I want a relationship like my friends do,
I want to be able to hug you without feeling awkward.
It will take some time,
Won't just happen over night.
But we'll be how we should be soon.
I've finally ended all this hurt I once felt,
The past of you, the hurts, they are now forgotten,
Not even a memory.
