My World

Leave me be! Let me lie! Let me stay!
Why do you try to dig me up from this ground,
this ground in which I am rooted to,
this ground in which I created for myself.

The never ending lies you say I make,
let them live, let them wander for me,
tell me that my world I live in is fake,
tell me I live a life that no other could.

The scars, the blood, the tears, the words,
all proof of my real pain in reality,
you want to help me? ignore the truth,
for me, tell me that my thoughts are real.

I look back to the ages when I was young,
sweet, innocent, looking for everything good,
not having a car in the world apart from my mother,
I saw her bruises, I saw his smile, I remember.

You tell me I need help, you tell me I am troubled,
... you have no idea, you have no clue,
slip the words of your choice into my world,
but do not expect me to acknowledge or reply.

It started before anyone knew, before I knew,
it was too late for even suggesting to turn back,
the slow course of finding out it was happening,
the awakening of darkness; all an adventure to me.

You say you want me to be happy,
and yet you torment me, remind me of reality,
summoning, awaking, the truth i tried so hard to escape,
the reality of things I never want to know.

Lyrics of my soul escape my world,
read them, share them, reflect on their purpose,
take the pieces of me left behind and hold them dear,
for you will have nothing more as I drift away, into my world.

© Gurdy x (GoddessOfWings)