Lost in confusion

When she told me about you and her
I at first thought everything would be good
But now as I sit here and think about it
I'm feeling things that I know I should’t
I didn’t think I liked you like that
Until the moment she spoke
And told me about you relationship
At that exact moment I knew my heart broke
But I still sit here and wonder
Why I'm feeling this way
I have never even looked at you
With feelings of awe and aye
But as I sit here and think about everything
I'm starting to realize
Maybe I did have feelings for you
That I have always just kept hidden inside
The other night I thought you looked at me
The way I know your looking at her now
I thought there was maybe going to be something
But I just wanted to run and hide
Maybe if I hadn’t run and hide then
You wouldn’t be with her know
Instead you would be here sitting next to me
Holding me with your loving warm arms
Now I don’t know which way I feel for you
Do I love or hate?
I will just have to take some time
And straighten my thoughts out

*Plz r/c! It means alot to me!!*