I hate how I can't hate you

I’m not saying I want you back.
I’m not saying I miss your kiss.
I’m saying I miss talking to you until midnight
I miss skipping school to be with you.
I miss being your friend.
But I don't want to be your girl again.
Because I hate when you lied to me.
I hated how you said you’d never be like the other guys.
I hate how that’s what you’ve become.
I hate how you talked to everyone but me.
But mostly I hate how I loved you since we met.
I hate how you made me care
I hate how I miss you, and
how I could never hate you,
How I will always love you,
But how I know that it wouldn’t work
if we were together again.

hayley ©