This is how i feel

I am so sad and depressed,
No one knows how much pain i have suppressed,
until i go home and grab my knife,
because with it i try to take my life,
how i really feel ,
i have never said,
that's why i am so confused and messed up in my head,
what am i supposed to do,
to make it stop,
what can i do to make all this stupid shit be dropped.

Please comment thanks