Bitter Taste of Hate

You called me a f u c k ing liar
When all I did was care
It's funny how you hate me now
When on my worst days you weren't there

You said that I lied
About what, the truth?
I guess it's hard to see
When we're caught up in our youth

You call me a traitor
Well, yes, that's true
I didn't want to do it
But I did - all for you.

You say now there's no trust
You don't think I realized that?
I gave up all I had worked for
To keep your safety just where it's at

The last time I kept a secret of yours
You almost committed suicide
And I just can't bear the thought
Of it being my fault had you died

So when you told me about your troubles
I couldn't risk your life
Even though I never wanted to lose you
MY feelings weren't in sight

Every decision I made that night
I made for you and that's it
And you may hate me now
Since you aren't big on forgive and forget

But I won't ride the guilt trip train
I did what was right
It hurts me you can't see
That all I did was care that night

I was so worried about you
When you've rarely expressed worry about me
I have never left your side
But you have left mine, don't you see?

I guess I knew you'd be so angry
But I didn't expect you to give me blame
I haven't f u c k ed up your life
But I'm getting accused just the same

Please don't hurt more over this
Please don't commit and die
For all I did I did for you
But you won't get to see me cry

All the days and nights I've ever been
So troubled that I can't breathe
You were rarely there
But I've never cared about me

All I wanted to do was save
But I've lost a lot, too
You mean so much to me
But I must not mean so much to you

I won't say I take it back
And you say you won't forget what I did
Well, I've forgotten all the things you've done to me
Even the times you wished me dead

I've never stopped loving you
And I suppose I never will
But if you want to blame me
Well, my heart you kill

i wish you could see what I did
Was only out of care
But I'd just like you to remember
That I was ALWAYS there

Oh, sweet justice
Taste so bitter on my tongue
I only wish we could all win
But this time you were the one.