XXx Silence xXx

I cannot do this anymore,
I cannot hide what matters,
I cannot watch your every move
Tearing my soul to tatters.

Silence can’t last forever,
Neither can these lies,
Because it kills me so softly,
I won’t be the one I despise.

Flashback to May last year,
To the first time we ever spoke,
Which sadly was also the day,
My honesty to you broke.

Blinded by your beauty,
Transfixed with your ways,
How you lured me unknowingly,
For all the following days.

I always wanted to tell you,
That I love you all too much,
I treasure our every word,
Every time our worlds did touch.

But I found out you had someone,
And it made me feel infected,
With an illness slowly killing me,
I felt so horribly rejected.

But after months of this,
I decided to forget,
Thinking I could win you over,
I mean I hadn’t tried it yet.

So I spent so much time by you,
I thought it was becoming clear,
I thought that you’d have realized,
That I’ve loved you since last year.

But you show no signs of recognising
The feelings I had inside,
Because you’re so innocent,
You saw no truth there to decide.

And now I’m sick of hiding.
The fact that I want us together,
So I’ll give myself a week to tell you,
And if I don’t, I’ll move on forever.

I don’t know how this will go,
Whether it will bring content or violence,
But the truth is there, it will show,
Or else I’ll forever feel in silence.

For Danni, as usual.