I look at everything good
and try to avoid the bad
but there's only so much you can take
before you've run out of the glad.
I don't fit in
I have no where to turn
I'm all alone
Here, alone, I shall burn.
I've run into a dead end
Dead is how I feel
There's no happiness left
For that I would kill.
I'd kill myself for happiness
To be happy once more
Because then I'll be relieved
Then I'll find the door.
I will exit this world
And all the fakes left behind
I will finally have somewhere to go
After my dark suicide.
I will blame it on happiness
And the lack of being
And how no one noticed me
As a decent human-being.
I always showed off
I did ten times better
Just to prove I was successful
Just to get a letter.
Though that doesn't make a difference
It doesn't set me free
It doesn't make me belong
It disguises the inner me.
I try to be myself
But it's hard being alone
My friends found new people
Replacement is all that's shown.
The only friends I have
I don't even know
It's sad that they're the only people
Who can make my day glow.
Hurting myself is useless
I always chicken out
After a few good cuts
My arm like a bloody spout.
Nothing will end it
I refuse to let it go deep
So I sit and cry
Because of the cowards defeat.
I do everything I can
To finally end my life
But in the end I come up short
I back down from my own strife.
