My Past

"My Past"
28.2.2005

People have memories
they keep them forever
the good and the bad
i remember
i woke up as a 7year old
started walking
i heard something
like someone crying far away....
i push the door
found someone close to me
Crying...
i asked what happened
he told me she fell
i did not believe that lie
i found out in the later years
he smacked her...
she fell to the ground
she told me
i cuddled close to her
i held her tight
told her this Will never happen again

remembering the bad things
remembering staying up
waiting for that yell..
waiting for that thump
to run out and see what happened
i was holding the phone
i walked over to the stairs
i looked down into the dark
saw someone close to me
getting a dog chain put around them
i hit him..
running after me...
i stopped running
i said i will call
he stopped
he looked at me with his eyes
all i remember is his tears
running from one end to the other
on his face.
told me he was sorry
i did not want to listen
to bullshit
to someone lying in my eyes

now i can sleep at night
not having to worry
worry about Her getting hit
getting a dog chain put around her
i sleep as a 17 year old
with someone that i hope to keep
someone very close to me
someone that is taking care of me
all i have now is good memories
the ones that put a smile on your face
this is the worst memory that i have
my Father has layed a hand on her
my mother tried to get away
i was the only think to help
help her get away..

everyday waking up
wondering what would of happened
if those two did not give me life
where would My Mother be right now?
i am glad
i am not PERFECT
i hope you don't
don't remember that day Mom.
worst day of ours life's.

by Emir
he is my father but i dont love him like i used too..