To Remember

I want to remember
The way it felt to smile
Many years before tears
Ran neverending like the Nile

I want to remember
What its like to feel
Not have to cut myself
Just to prove this is real

I want to remember
Who that girl is in the mirror
Without the tainted skin
That developed over the years

I want to remember
How its like to be caring
Not find happiness in others pain
And feel my heart tearing

I want to remember
What it was like to not cry
To be able to see the sun
Not this dark black sky

I want to remember
How to wake back up
Not clawing through the darkness
Ready to give up

I want to remember
Anything
I just want to remember
Anything