*i know its long but please read it and let me no what you think... thanks*
As much as I do love you,
You’re always a prick to me
I don’t wish you dead
Because that’s not me
And I would not
I mean I could not,
You’re my father and for that I love you,
I love you for being there when I fall,
For bringing me into this world,
So I can be your baby girl,
I love you I do,
But I also hate you with all I can
I hate you for never believing in me
For always seeing what’s wrong in me,
For always yelling and arguing
Never to just speak to me
For as long as I can remember
We’ve only ever had one good conversation,
I know you don’t trust me that much,
I know deep down you do love me,
I know you don’t really want me to grow up,
To leave you and mum behind,
But I love you,
And you do need to lay off me,
I need to grow,
I need to see what you have,
I know I was a mistake,
I know I was the one, who ruined your life,
And for that I’m sorry
But you cant blame it all on me
No matter how much you want to,
I need room to breath,
I need my daddy sometimes
I need top be hugged by you,
To be loved by you
So I don’t feel I have done everything wrong by you
I need to know sometimes you’re proud of me
And not just annoyed at me
For being here, so you have to come home and see me,
I know shouldn’t
And I hate feeling like this,
Everyday thoughts like this flow in and out of my mind,
Thoughts like does he love me for me,
Or because he has to?
Thoughts I don’t want to think but are there,
And they are all because of you
Don’t get me wrong dad
Because as I said I love you,
And I just want to know if you love me
For the right reasons and not the wrong
If you are proud of me
And why do you hate me so,
What have I done to make you like this to-wards me?
I’m sorry daddy for everything,
Just try to forgive me,
Because whether or not you like it
I’m apart of you forever,
No matter where I am
I will always need and love you daddy.
