Everyone knows but you

Laying in the bed, i stare up at the ceiling,
wondering why god gave me these feelings,
when all they do is cause me pain,
making me want something i'll never gain,
crying silent tears, lying in the dark,
wanting so bad for you to mend my broken heart,
but you're to busy holding another to notice how you make me feel,
if i could tell you, i could prove that i was true and real,
you're smile makes my worst day turn around,
hearing your voice, lets me know that solitude can be found,
wondering what it's like to hold you in just one kiss,
will it turn out happily or with another cut on my wrist?
you mean the world to me,
and everyone can see,
but you, you're blinded by our friendship,
and when ever i don't tell you, i feel like sh**,
because we promised no secrets, and that'd we'd stay true,
but how can i tell, when everyone knows but you......

*i think that is the original.... my stupid computer messed up! but anyways... tell me what you think.... it was written for my best guy friend.....and how i don't know how to tell him... but everyone else knows*