My Hero

It’s ironic
That a year has passed
I’ve missed your face, your smile,
And most of all your laugh.

You don’t know
But I’ve tried to tell you
That you are the best friend
That I ever knew.

Every day was made special
During the weeks before I left
We stayed up late talking about life
In my heart is where we were kept.

We did everything together
All I wanted was more time
But my mom’s job called
Leaving me temporarily blind.

I got to my new house
Not believing this was true
I spent days on the phone
Talking to everyone I knew.

I talked to you every night
For a couple months at least
You kept my mind straight
Protecting me from the beast.

Your voice brought tranquility
But after months of self hate
I grew weak keeping it all inside
Feeling empty and irate.

See I thought I was alone
Like no one would ever care
And what was I supposed to think
If support was never there?

You did pull through though
Only after I reached the edge
Every time I called your name,
Never again so I pledged.

I had never experienced depression
So I was in a new ball park
Lost and alone with no one to hold
I tired to see past the dark.

Our friendship was winding down
Loosing the chemistry that was there
But I couldn’t bare that thought
And never would I dare.

A year later I sit here writing
Thinking of the words I never said
Maybe if I had told you straight up
I would have never bled.

Funny how much things can change
In a single year’s time
You have new better friends
Who are eternally sublime.

How can I compete
With a thousand miles of distance
You have people who suit you better
So I should quit my persistence.

Don’t get me wrong now,
You’re the greatest person I know
Please don’t ever forget me
Because you were my first hero.

Thank you for reading.