Feelings

*this is not a poem people, sorry, just feelings*

Feelings are strange, well the ones I feel anyway, as if there is a huge hole in my stomach, a hole that means something is missing. But I do know that this “hole” or whatever it is hurts. Physical, unbearable pain that I have to deal with day after day, and sometimes it gets too much. Does anyone else feel the hole? The literal emptiness inside of you? I don’t want to feel like it, I have friends and family who love me so why should i feel like it? I know I don’t have the best life, but some people have it worse than me and I feel selfish writing this. The addiction that seems to take over my life is haunting me, its always there, An addiction that will not go away. It plays on my mind. It won’t leave me alone. My friends don’t know, why should they? The few that do know don’t really care, they just say they do. They feel the need to, but they don’t really understand, not properly. One of them does, but no one seems to understand my friendship with her. They doubt her. I love her. I want the pain to end, even if it means ending it all, I cant cope with it much longer, I need to get away, I want it to end, this horrible feeling. Im slowly dying, I WANT IT TO END