I couldnt hav guessed,
that today would be our last,
i should hav made it the best,
i cursed and sweared,
i lied and said everything u never needed to hear.
why couldnt god have waited,
just another day,
he left a picture painted,
with me and my evil ways.
all i remember is when u started to cry,
i thought to myself,
god damn it why,
why is it this that needs to be delt.
why couldnt u hav just ignored me,
couldnt everything have passed,
why was i too blind to see,
that today was our last.
u took ur life,
in spite of me,
i wanted to be your wife,
o god why couldnt we be??
i remember finding u,
not a word u could say,
what was i supposed to do,
god cant things ever go my way.
i held u in my arms,
knowing it was all my fault,
u were ever so warm,
and u left this feeling to haunt.
there are no words to explain,
now how i feel,
inside of me theres so much pain
all i do is grieve.
i begged god to send u back,
i cried and cried,
now im left to accept the fact,
that it was me that caused u to die..
