Dear Baby Girl

Dear Baby Girl,
You were born today
Unwed and pregnant I was full of shame
I heard you cry before they took you away
I couldn't even give you a rightful name

Daddy said I was supposed to forget
The baby girl I had back that year
Said giving you up should not cause regret
For you I should not shed a single tear

Strong on the outside, but not on the in
I cried myself endlessly to sleep
What I would give to see you again
To have my baby girl to keep

Dear Baby Girl,
Today was your one year of birth
Wonder if you have brown eyes or blue
Does your family have any idea what you're worth
Or how much that Mommy misses you

Couple more months have gone past
Wonder if you're walking on those two feet
Bet you're changing and growing so fast
Hope one day we get that chance to meet

Bet now you've started your your first day of school
Learning your abc's, numbers and how to read and write
Hope the kids are nice to you and not to cruel
Hope Mom and Dad hug you when they tuck you in at night

Dear Baby Girl,
You'll be hitting sweet sixteen
Learning how to drive and have your first love
Don't make mistakes that may need fixing
And if you do search for strength up above

Soon you'll be college hunting and graduating
How I wish I was there to cheer you on
All the dreams that you must be anticipating
All the things I missed are forever gone

At eighteen you can search for your mother
That's if you even know that i exist
I love you much and you have a brother
We wanted to search for you but had to resist

Dear Baby Girl,
Grandpa's gone now so he can't call you sin
You were my daughter all of these years
I really hope that we'll meet up again
Even if you're angry with me I'll stand up to my fears

A few more years come to pass
I'll never get to know you
Got to learn that the pain was meant to last
Giving you up the only thing i could do

By now I hope that you are happily married
Maybe have some babies of your own
Never will I forget the love I carried
For my baby girl now all grown

Dear Baby Girl,
Still hope you're doing fine
I'm not since they found the cancer
Prayed I would see that girl of mine
Guess that no is still that answer

When I die my last thoughts will be of you
Hoping you and my boy will have happy days ahead
A wish of love for a daughter I never knew
Hope he'll tell you about the life I had before I was dead

Between the lonely lines in this very note
My love I send to you before I leave the world
See the meaning beyond these last words I wrote
I missed you all my life, I love you forever dear baby girl