Dad

Why does this feel so wrong
and like i shouldn't love you
i can no longer pretend to try
and be strong my heart it aches because i don't know what to do
i used to hate you so much
it didn't help we lost touch
i still hate you because of all your lying
it doesn't matter how much you keep on trying
a part of me will always hate you
so what made me love you
i don't have clue
i need a father
even if it happens to be you