Going Down

by Just Sierra   Jul 12, 2005


I’m sitting in the dark
Wondering what to do
I want this pain to be over
I want this life to be through

The pain you bring to me
It’s neither good nor bad
It’s a taste of your power
And the lose of control I had

The words won’t come out
They get tangled up in me
And every time I try to write
It’s another language, I see.

I’m not who I was
Or even who I want to be
I’m changing before your very eyes
I don’t like this new me

I’m shedding these tears
As if they were the last thing on this earth
The happiness is disappearing
The laughter and the mirth.

The smile, too, is fading in the mirror
Before my very eyes
In slow motion it deteriorates
Behind the tears she cries.

What is happening to me?
I’m losing myself over him
I throw myself at the mercy
To his every whim.

I’m a slave to this love
It’s downright killing me
I don’t want to be treaded over by you
But I don’t want to be free

These chains are all that’s keeping me
From breaking down and apart
I feel myself crumble within
Starting with my heart.

Oh god, oh god, I love you
You just don’t know what you do
The power you exercise over me
And the pain I’m going through!

I need you to breath, to laugh
But you’re dragging me down too
You’re suffocating me at times
And others, I’m suffocating you.

These chains do not break
Whether or not for the better
We’re going down separately,
But we’re going down together.

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  • 19 years ago

    by Georgi

    These chains do not break
    Whether or not for the better
    We’re going down separately,
    But we’re going down together

    I LOVE the last two lines! woah! great poem hun! dont be sad, love you

    xxxxx

  • 19 years ago

    by Just Sierra

    haha a meatball hoagie is....a club that Georgi and I made up for righteous people with similar beliefs...its sort of like a safety group too. On the discussion boards, people are always bashing us and we often feel lonely, it's a way we stick together, like the buddy system.

    I hope that doesn't get to Nick!! He knows he's not, we both know he's not!!

    Nick wouldn't ever believe some crap like that, lol! He'd just be like, "okayy..i wonder why you said that...lol!" But _uck her!! I would hurt her too, lol, but there'd be like nothing I could do but jump on her, lol! THat's my thing..i like jumping on people, LMAO! lol!!

    Don't let it piss you off, hun! Where'd she tell him that??? I'll emotional scar that fag! lol! hehehehe, i'm thrilled already, hurry up and give me the info!! I wanna get her before i lose my guts, lol!!

    I need some fun, lol!

    ~Sierra

    __MEATBALL HOAGIE#2__

    Georgi and I are the leaders, YAY!

    lol!

  • 19 years ago

    by The Flame Within

    freakin beutiful. i love the last stanza the seperat together ohh gosh, amazingly put, i hope you are ok plz be ok, i Love you. be strong aite, i think you wrote this so freakin awsome,it is a very touching poem. i feel your emotion just jumping right off the words, its brilliant. i hope your ok, takce care alright, much Love

    Nick

  • 19 years ago

    by Just Sierra

    Hey, Car!!! I got a new sn, so if you get on AIM, I can tell you there, lol!! LYLAS, thank you so much!

    ~Sierra

    __meatball hoagie#2__

  • 19 years ago

    by Carlee Ann

    You are so freaking talented. Wish I had an ounce of it! Goodness, Sierra, your poems are so good it's crazy! Who is this about?

    Anyway, this was incredible... sad and full of emotion. Your poems seem to speak!

    Hang in there sweets, You know I'm here for you whenever you need it.

    Mwah! Lylas~

    Car

    *!*Rhubarb*!*

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