Tainted ( Under All this dirt)

These feelings I feel,
Leave wounds that won’t heal,
The secrets I hold,
Might explain why I’m so cold.

Every time I look I see crying,
To cry tells me nothing, I’ve never shed a tear,
The world so dark, filled with lying.
That I lie is what I fear…

I know I know
I should take you aside and talk…
I know You know
I’d rather go outside and walk.

This secret it tears me up
It tears me apart,
secrets another way to say shut up,
Am I dead, or am I dying,
Who cares I’m ready to start,
A secret another form of lying!

I know I know
I should take you aside and talk…
I know You know
I’d rather go outside and walk.

You called, my answering machine said out for walk
You knew as well as I do what I left to do,
Stayed far from people didn’t wanna talk,
Til I found my final place to call home, where have wandered few.

I know I know
I should take you aside and talk…
I know You know
I’d rather go outside and walk.
Walk to where the sun will fade,
Fall deep into the depths of the hell,
That these secrets have made.
You thought you knew me but did you know me well?

All along I’ve been a liar,
Not to you but only to myself,
Deep within me burns a fire,
A stash of secrets to which some find wealth.

Ashamed of me, if you are I understand why
If your not its too late and its besides the fact.
I was slowly dying anyways, u couldn’t help and its pointless to try
I know you’ll cry, but trust me its better than me giving up this act…