Letting down my gaurd

For all these years I have been building up my walls
only for you to shatter them and walk right in
I know you will you hurt me
I know you wont care if you do
but at the same time I don’t care
because for a short time in my life I can feel something other than pain
in time that pain will come back in double or triple
because you have gone and there is nobody to turn to
even though in truth you were never really there for me I don’t care
I just want you back