Awake I lie
Alone in the dark
As these four walls close in
Burying me in my thoughts
The thoughts take over every inch of me
I cannot move
I cannot speak
The pain is overwhelming
Pain that should have vanished away
Pain that should not be felt
I feel the world crumbling down
With no way to stop it
I feel life heading in a downward direction
With no moving up
I know in my heart what can help me
There is no way of getting that help
Without taking a risk
A risk of losing more than I have already
What I have is not what I want
What I want is unreachable
Awake I lie
Stretching out my arm
Hoping to reach ahead
But all I see in front of me
Is darkness
