I have to cut again

I feel the need arise
It's deep inside my soul
I can feel it pulling me on the inside
and now myself I loathe

So I'll go and take myself away
from all the madness and all the pain

For a few minutes I'm going to feel fine
and I'll be OK for just a moment in time

Losing this fight I play against my will
maybe I should just give up and go take a pill

someone help me I'm screaming out
No one will ever come for me even if I shout

So I'll slash the razor against my wrist and In a second My blood I'll only miss

Doesn't anyone get that these changing are happening too fast
They don't hear me
to them I'm just a fancy piece of glass

so help me Jesus I don't wanna do this anymore
I'm dying inside tell me what lies in store

as I go to my room now and I cradle my arms and hands
I will again fall for I couldn't take a stand