I Truly Wish To Die

To my family:

I don’t belong here anymore
This place is not my home
Every day I fall in deeper
I just want to be left alone

People keep on asking me
But I know of my mistake
Sorry I can’t help the fact
That I am living as a fake

So much pain is involved
I am always feeling blue
I only run into dead ends
Not knowing what to do

When I do wrong choices
They just backfire on me
I lost everything I wanted
And all that I could ever be

Nothing now can save me
Hope was lost so long ago
Even though you don’t care
I thought you should know

That soon I will be leaving
No longer now can I live
I can’t say I will stay here
As I have nothing to give

And I cannot force a smile
For that will be another lie
No longer can I hide the fact
That I truly do wish to die