I know you're here,
I feel you.
I can feel you near,
You're watching me.
I can feel your eyes,
I can see your shadows.
I can hear your cries,
I know you're lonely.
I know who you are,
You're here with me.
Yet you feel so far,
Mom, please stop this.
It's scaring me so,
I'm sorry for everything.
Just please go,
I can't handle all this Mom.
I know you're doing it for help,
I just need out, Mom.
I can't handle it anymore,
Everything's gone to hell.
I'm not doing good, Mom,
I haven't been doing well,
I keep cutting my arm, Mom.
There's something wrong with me,
I can't do it anymore.
I can't pretend to be,
I can't pretend to be fine.
I'm not okay,
What's wrong with me?
Why am I acting like this?
Why do I keep crying,
And slitting my wrists?
Why did God take you,
When he knew I wouldn't be okay?
Does he want me to kill myself?
He knows I think about you each day,
Life would be so different, Mom.
If you were still alive,
I just don't know what to do.
I'm sorry I just can't do it,
I can't handle feeling you.
I know you're here with me,
I can feel you near.
Please just leave, Mom,
Don't stay here.
I'll be coming to visit you soon, Mom,
And I won't leave.
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Wow..sorry you probably think I'm crazy..but some weird stuff has been happening tonight and I feel as if I'm being watched..I'm having a pretty horrible night and I could just be halousinating(spelled wrong sorry) but I don't know..some of this isn't true I just..don't know..sorry..vote and comment if you want to.
