Why have tings turned out like this

I looked at you you looked at me there was a connection there for anyone to see . i walked your way but neither could say would you go out with me .
Ive no when you for a while now four years infact we never once took it for granted that we'd never be together . however something changed inside of both of us we got closer and started to see each other maybe that is why its like it is. now we both got to close some one had to get hurt it was me that hurt the most and now you not here i wanna be with you so bad you gave you life you gave your soul you would have been a great dad theres not a day that goes by wen i dont think about you wish that i was up in heaven with you wishing id be up there SO soon