Only in myself can i hide

by jaki   Jul 14, 2005


For the first time in my life
I am alone
With no where to run
And only in myself can I hide

The scars in my arm run so deep
Yet for some reason
The gates up above
Always stay close

I’m sick of hearing the sorry’s
And the silent words
My parent’s share
Late at night

No one was to know
That counselling
Wouldn’t save me
Or help in anyway

But throughout all the hard times
I always had a shoulder to cry on
A friend to talk to
But not now

Now I am lost and so alone
In a sea full of people
Never knowing
Where to go

Every corner I turn
Leads me to another dead end
And I am sick of searching
For something I am not meant to find

Trust has not been a friend of mine
And everything I once believed in
Has let me down
And left me cold

I wonder why my cuts never shed enough blood
Every attempt at death seems to fail
But now I know
Every sin I have done has come back in revenge
And will not give me what I want

For the first time in my life
I am alone
With no where to run
And only in myself can I hide

sorry it is so long, but many tears were shed whilst writing this poem, so your comments would be kindly appreciated

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  • 17 years ago

    by Melpomene

    This poem explained your emotions and feelings really well.
    Its different unique in its own way.
    Great job on a great poem.
    Well done ~mel

  • 18 years ago

    by ♥ no_one_knows ♥

    Wow. I can really relate to this poem. It is exactly how I feel sometimes. And I agree that counceling doesn't help. I have been going since june and it hasn't done nething. I'm here if you ever need to talk.
    -Sami

  • 19 years ago

    by Razorblade

    Nice poem, it explained a lot of what your feeling.

    -Taylor

  • 19 years ago

    by ZOMGEMO

    Hey... I havn't read any of your poems for awhile, sorry... but this one is amazing... it's different... I love it... I'm going to go trhough and check out the rest of your poems... I would appreciate if you did the same...

    Stay Strong ^_^

    *..KimiC..* XxXo0oXxX

  • 19 years ago

    by Shelby G.

    Dear jackie :( I've been here.. hell, i'm STILL here. I know exactly how much it hurts - though i do believe everyone hurts in a different way for different reasons. this poem is awsome, keep on keeping on and don't give up no matter how heavy the weight becomes.

    -BlackBird