Everything or Nothing

Don't say
You loved me
Don't you dare
Pretended you cared

You teared it open
My body, soul and heart
Eleven months and fourteen days
All gone down the drain

So tell me

Was I nothing
Or was I something
And if I was something
Than why do I feel like nothing

I meant nothing to you
Though you said I was your life
You shewed me off
Whats stopping me from turning to the knife?

I thought you wanted
A family with me
I gave you everything
Every part of me

So tell me

Was I nothing
Or was I everything
And if I was everything
Then why do I feel like nothing

I let you in
Showed you my feelings
God was I dumb
That helped you play me

You say I adonanded you
When I did no such thing
I was trying to keep my promise
By staying away from your sister

You want me
You don't
You throw me away
Like I'm some kind of junk

Tell me
Please do
This is what
I beg from you

Was I nothing
Or was I something
If I was something
Then why do I feel like nothing

When all I wanted
Was to make you happy
By keeping my promise
Is that so selfish?

Because if it is
I'm so sorry
I feel like I committed a crime
That made you hate me

So tell me

Was I nothing
Or was I everything
And if I was everything
Than why do I feel like nothing

Oh baby please tell me
Because you were
My only safe place to be
Now I want more

But yet
I was nothing to you
But you were everything to me
Why wasn't I everything to you
Instead of nothing