Cry myself to sleep

I walk up the stairs
into my room
and collapse on the floor

the pain i endure each day
it brings me to my hands and knees
I scream in pain
but no one hears

i curl into a ball as i cry
in the silence you hear my tears
hitting the floor with such power
with such pain

someone is coming down the hall
i hurry to wipe away the tears
i turn on some music
and act like nothing is happening

you see a smile
so you think all is ok
look into my eyes...
you will see hell

you walk out with the door closed behind you
i fall back and the tears come

i turn off the lights
turn off the music
and sit in my bed

i slowly fall asleep...
the tears dry
and the rest of my pain has to wait until tomorrow

i do this each night
i have been for 3 years
you never knew
you never will