Ripped at the seams (thanx for the title)

Crying inside because of all of the lies
not knowing what to do i want to die
the friendships i used to have i look back at them and they make me smile they make me oh so very glad
thinking of how it all fell apart so quickly
suddenly i am all alone
crying crimson tears i wish i had a friend to take away all of my fears i was just to confused to admit that i was wrong i guess the only thing i had left of us were those stupid f**king songs all of the memories of all of my old friends who knew it would all come to an end everyone thought we would be best friends forever but i guess they were wrong because now we don't talk ever
feeling betrayed back stabbed and played how could this all happen to me in a matter of a couple of days we used to laugh at everything all of us together but now when i see you guys together laughing i want to cry i feel so left out and so out of place cuz when i lost all of you in my heart formed an empty space
you guys were all i had and i lost most of you i guess alls that i can be now is sad
broken inside i lost all of my pride i changed from outgoing to shy and everyone asks me because they all wonder why i tell them it is because after we all stopped being friends you guys all became mean to me and criticized me about everything right to the very ends
i lost self esteem and i let go of all of my dreams all because i lost my world everything was ripping at the seams i never thought it would end up like this all over some lies and bull s**t and one little kiss but what happened happened and it all changed for me so fast but it is all over now so theres no longing for the past the out comes of my losses just gave me more gains now i have some very trustworthy friends and a great boy to call my own so screw all of you guys now ya ll are so lame